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Woke up still incredibly angry just now. Not even thinking about my parents now, just angry at the world. I'm tired of not having anything.

Speaking of:

Dragonlord2328 said:
Tried to get a ps5 cant get one anywhere

I don't know how much one is but I'd sure like to have the USD of whatever it is. I'm hungry as usual but this time it's not by choice. I just want some food and I don't have the 60-something cents it costs for a pack of ramen or a can of beans right now (nor a means to even get to the store). So having the $400+ dollars that a PS5 probably costs would be a fucking dream.

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    user 398846

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    @bipface: To be clear to everyone I'm not talking about my birth mom and dad. They died when I was really little. These motherfuckers were half-foster parents to me as I was staying with them a few hours a day and living in the group home I grew up in. I wasn't allowed to stay with them because firstly they did not have a license to keep a disabled kid of my severity and secondly I would not agree to adoption to override that policy.

    I was orphaned and didn't feel comfortable suddenly having parents but they always told me they loved me as their real child. And I believed them too. I just didn't want to be another "part of the system." (Or fail as one as I inevitablly did.)

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    user 398846

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    bipface said:
    who inherited their fortune instead of you ?

    My cousin. Not Kristal_Candeo but one that didn't commit suicide. One who was super successful already and didn't need it.

    They wanted to give it to the next family generation but not me because they wanted to prove to me that money isn't worth as much as love and told me that I needed to make my own way financially as an adult. (Which is fucked up because they knew since I was in 7th grade that I was pretty heavily disabled and likely would not be able to do so.)

    user 398846

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    I'm so angry right now thinking about my life situation vs my parents. They never gave me any money or bought me anything even though they were rich. But they always loved me and anytime I said I wanted something they would say that even though other kids had all this stuff and money I have love which is, according to them, what a lot of kids didn't have.

    Well Ma and Diddy, I hope you are burning in hell. I'm broke as fuck and can't even afford food sometimes and alot of good your love is doing me now that you are dead. You've left me sad/lonely AND in poverty.

    Fucking bitch ass motherfuckers

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    user 398846

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    I have an old Thumb stick dedicated to content from creators that either deleted and redacted all of their stuff at some point or stopped working on WIP builds either from not wanting to work on them either or getting C&D orders. It's mostly games and long videos. Anyway, you'll never guess what I have found on it:

    MLP Fighting is Magic from way back when. And not the "Them's Fightin' Herds" version but The actual MLP one. The final build exe (that was created) too. That's dope as fuck.

    A real treasure for sure.

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    L00na BOT

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    i wish ppl nearby had young kkidz i wanna tri babysiting. ive been intrested in it fer a wile

    notasexualdodo

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    DGM said:
    Assuming you wrote that comment, this blip might not help. Just saying.

    On second thought I shouldn't have typed it out in the first place. I don't remember when I first heard it, but basically I should've went the following route: "Write something in drafts, then read it the next day. If you no longer agree with what it says, then you probably shouldn't post it". Lesson learned, I guess.

    DGMFX

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    VariableY said:
    tfw you see a comment on e621 on a post that's already tagged with lol_comments that's so awful, so revolting, that you end up writing a whole comment venting frustrations, one that potentially can result in an account warning

    I fear for the worst

    Assuming you wrote that comment, this blip might not help. Just saying.

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    W0LFB3AT5

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    Question: did the “250 characters limit” in the blips extend infinitely during my one year absence? I see other’s blips that are longer than 250...

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    Dragonlord2328

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    G0wther said:
    I need to detox my body really badly. I know the term "detox" is not all that reliable as a medical statement, however my body really is contaminated right now.

    I have so much fag smoke in my blood as well as in the air around me so I'm constantly breathing dirty air in and trying to cover it with chemicals is only making it worse.

    Also, I have discovered that my system is insanely acidic. Not necessarily that my blood ph is too low but my entire system is full of acids and that is not only bad in and of itself but that's actually partly why I can't sleep well; all I drink is acidic stuff and I don't eat so there's not enough food salts to balance it out and acidic biochemistry leads to restlessness.

    All that said, I am going to take a bio-cleaning break for a few days. To get all of these acids, carcinogens and free-radicals out of me the best I can. Wish me luck, everyone! I love you all!

    Good luck my friend :)

    user 398846

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    I need to detox my body really badly. I know the term "detox" is not all that reliable as a medical statement, however my body really is contaminated right now.

    I have so much fag smoke in my blood as well as in the air around me so I'm constantly breathing dirty air in and trying to cover it with chemicals is only making it worse.

    Also, I have discovered that my system is insanely acidic. Not necessarily that my blood ph is too low but my entire system is full of acids and that is not only bad in and of itself but that's actually partly why I can't sleep well; all I drink is acidic stuff and I don't eat so there's not enough food salts to balance it out and acidic biochemistry leads to restlessness.

    All that said, I am going to take a bio-cleaning break for a few days. To get all of these acids, carcinogens and free-radicals out of me the best I can. Wish me luck, everyone! I love you all!

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    user 398846

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    Wow, nearly 24 full hours of sleep. When waking up everything feels very... different. I don't know how to describe it but things are more real or alive now. It's strange.

    Anyway, back to taking care of this person I'm with for another few days.

    coyotebear

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    bipface said:
    depends on your taste — unleaded is pretty damn cheap these days; that'd be my pick for fragrance

    I'd agree so long as we are talking about the Good Stuff: US (R+M)/2 94 octane is a bit like a sweet white wine (regular unleaded usually smells bitter and harsh)

    I am also down for an essential oil diffuser that runs on 2-stroke when wanting a summertime experience

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    Hacker001

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    Anyone here like Huang Chung? Listening to the album right now, and it's still a great album. I'm on "Dancing" right now.

    user 398846

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    So I have been up for 92 hrs. now and...

    TL;DR: I've been too wired taking care of someone and have been slipping into micro sleeps and they noticed

    ...the whole time I have not relaxed or been on a computer or device or anything. I have just been taking care of this patient and listening to high-energy music to keep the blood pumping. I'm too afraid to relax cause I want to take care of them at all times.

    The patient realized I had not slept a bit ago after doing things with my eyes closed (I've been micro sleeping alot the last day or so) and told me to relax for 20 min. (so I came here) and then sleep. They are worried about my health as much as I am worried about theirs.

    So goodnight people.

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