@French_Fried: I work every day, or nearly every day, from wake to sleep. Taking breaks feels like I'm wasting my time and/or disappointing people so I can't find it in me to enjoy it. It would feel at least a bit better to make more than the pittance I do for the work I put in so I'd feel a little less like I'm just throwing my time in the garbage, but there's not really any kind of community that wants work like what I make. Most days I wonder why I try at all when I just get nowhere.