I guess I've been "enjoying" furry porn for a few years now but I'm afraid I've hit a new low. I often have post nut clarity but I don't think I've had hour long panic attacks and depressive episodes from it. It's maybe a bit hilarious from the third person but some comic I found here a few days ago sent me down a mental spiral. Maybe it reminded me of past trauma or something, idk. Something just doesn't feel right.

I'm not even sure how to describe what I'm feeling right now and I seriously have no idea how could I talk to my therapist about it (which is why I came here). Not expecting much but I have no one else to talk to about this.

how could I talk to my therapist about it

I don't know much about therapy, but this definitely sounds like exactly what you should talk to your therapist about. Talk about it however you would talk about it here.

If not therapy, I would recommend posting about it on /r/healthygamergg (a subreddit community for the YouTube channel of the same name, which talks about mental health stuff. Note: discussing sex/relationships on the subreddit is technically only allowed on Fridays, though the rule is often broken), but you apparently have a therapist, so you should probably talk to them...

crocogator said:
I don't know much about therapy, but this definitely sounds like exactly what you should talk to your therapist about. Talk about it however you would talk about it here.

Thanks, I've just been having trouble being honest with the therapist. All she knows for now is that I watch "pornographic illustrations of dogs", I couldn't even bear myself to bring up anthro stuff or anything in the year or so I've spent there. It's weird for me to talk in person about fetish stuff (especially in detail), even if it would probably make it easier for her to help me.
Plus, I can't figure out what's bugging me this time.

Does anyone here even have experience in talking to an "outsider" about stuff like this? Or coping mechanisms?

Ultimately only a professional will truly be able to help you, random strangers on the internet like myself can only go so far. IMO explaining everything would be less embarrassing than letting her keep wondering what exactly those "pornographic illustrations of dogs" are supposed to be.

You could just say "I'm a furry and I look at drawn furry porn" and send this link: https://furscience.com

Last but not least if you are able to identify the elements causing you distress in tag form, I would recommend adding those to your blacklist.

The best way people can help you is for you to say everything that is on your mind. Talk to your therapist, your friends, or even just people who are in the same boat as you.

If it is a problem caused by consuming furry porn (and that specific comic in particular), I would recommend taking yourself off of it.
Make a plan to avoid it little by little. Start doing other stuff in life, such as hobbies or other real-life activities to keep your hands occupied and take your mind off things.
Try going one day without it, then two days, and so on. Eventually, you will wane yourself off of it completely.

If you find it distressing to have indulged in furry porn (such as due to tabooness), it is completely natural. This is just your mind's way of telling you that this is typically not socially acceptable in today's society.
As long as you know how to distinguish between what happens in fiction vs. what happens in reality and what is right vs. what is wrong, then you don't have to be too concerned about it.

mlpko999 said:
Does anyone here even have experience in talking to an "outsider" about stuff like this? Or coping mechanisms?

I personally do not have the experience, but I do know what is expected if you approach someone in the medical health profession.
Therapists are obligated to maintain client confidentiality in that everything said and discussed stays between the two of you, unless information that is shared could lead to potential harm to yourself or to others.

If you feel that it is right, you can share as much as you can with your therapist. They will not judge you for what you share since they are there to help you.
Share snippets if you feel ashamed of dumping everything all at once. Gradually, work up to the details once you are confident enough.

If you fear that they may not get it, do it anyways and provide some context if you feel that they may have trouble getting the picture (e.g., "They are like pornographic cartoons of animal characters.").
Additionally, you may also approach your own peers who also share the same interests as you for advice.

If you feel that you would prefer to discuss things or share details privately, you can also approach me (or anybody else here who is willing) to talk it out.