annoyed and sad: that i don't remember what it feels like to be genuinely happy or excited about...anything really.
i mean, sure i'm really looking forward to getting that sonic mania game but i was just thinking and in all likelihood i won't feel any and i mean ANY excitement or real happiness while playing it. i don't remember the last time any video game left me feeling that way. or pretty much anything else for that matter.
that's also partly why i don't like thinking about it. it just makes me feel worse about it.
i mean, sure theres the initial burst of happiness and excitement but once that's gone it's straight back to "-_- whatever..."
that i can still laugh at things and show any form of happiness or joy at all is probably nothing short of a miracle at this point.
hmmm...i guess it's not surprising then, how i tend to react rather negatively to anything that bothers me. well, more so than most people might.
:/ i can't think of a single thing i want to do right now and i hate it when that happens.
edit: huh, guess this one makes 1200 replies in this thread.
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