Shishigumi said:
well if you're trying to lose weight, starving does literal zero to help. it tells the metabolism to shut off burning fat storages and removes your physical energy and health in exchange.

also, this is not an appropriate place of discourse to reveal things like that about yourself. personal struggles are reserved for close friends and family. it's should feel humiliating to talk about anorexia on a general internet forum.

Internet is my life, and I don't have friends or family IRL. (especially now that COVID19 is on the loose). But I'll take your advice and stop here.

Still doesn't answer my original questions about sexuality and stuff though.

Samael_Morningstar said:
Still doesn't answer my original questions about sexuality and stuff though.

it kinda sounded like a situation which calls for expert-level relationship advice;
not sure there would be many here who could help you with that, and it's certainly way beyond me